Life's gettin a bit out of hand.

I just realised after ranting so much about MYE  I didn't update on the results. But seriously there's nothing for me to update you guys because it is damn freaking crappy, so much that I have the urge to tear it away but be rest assured I am calm enough not to do this. This week is mother tongue intensive and all those papers which I have done is like !$%^&*!. Each paper is worse then the previous one. This just tells me that I am so not prepare for 'O' It is not that I am pessimistic but it is a fact. I won't lose hope in myself & I am giving all my best for the paper on Monday. Good luck, I do need the luck :) !

I just believe it when Shina called me, after I put down the phone tears dropped for a reason I don't know. I hate the feeling of people leaving, even worse at this crucial period. Please tell me it is not true. I really hope it's a rumour only not the truth but  so many people had known it other than us...can it only be a rumour?

it's friday.

it's fridayyyyyyyyy. are you happy? time for a break, have a kit-kat lame. whatever. had chemistry P1 today. It's ok but I rarely do well for multiple choice questions and I didn't study for it. so it's like sure goner. oh ya! almost until the end of the paper I saw mdm loh & ms tan talking near the stage then I saw ms tan mumbling something about my name then the 2 of them were laughing.argh.i wonder what they were talking about! after exam went to eastlink to slack with iris and shan. they were accompanying me to wait for the mobile accessories store to open cause they paper only 1hour so ended very early shops aren't open yet and I wanted to buy my cover for itouch. so yea, i bought the pink one :) long john-ed for lunch. the chicken was nice, i am so going to buy it next time. the grilled fish is quite tasteless lucky I added cheese if not it's too bland for me le. we were hooked with overbreak. hahahaha. so fun :) Bio P1 on mon. good luck.

ps; my eyes so itch now !

did you?

I have this feeling I screwed my amath once again. I have this premonition. Don't ask me why. My sixth sense said so. I'm not being pessimistic. Come on, I got like 10marks gone and I am left with 70marks -.- My amath paper one I am left with like  60 marks. wth. goner. It's getting shitty now. My carelessness is killing me. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

whatever it's over. There's still chemistry paper one tomorrow. I shall leave my tears on the very day that I am taking back my scripts cause my results is going to be !@#$%^&*!

ps;I am waiting for my itouch...when are you coming? :(

hey yo.

I am wondering if there's anyone reading my blog? If you're here just leave a tag ah.haha. at least dont make me feel so lonely like I am writing to myself. "cut the crap" muahahaha. today physics was so-so. It wasn't a difficult paper. Not out to kill us at least. LOL. But you see, I suck at current I couldn't understand about V=IR all these crap so it's like so many questions on it. which mean fail. I hope I will remain calm when I get my results. haiz. byebye. touch is coming tomorrow :) !

zomg, this is cool.

cool.

Ok. I have to say, today is a good day :) What's the definition of good? Good is when I am happy/gay whatever.  Today paper was ok la, it's not easy but at least a paper which I have hope to score well for. So yeah. I am hoping for 70/80 & I believe for this paper most probably there will be people who get full marks. let's see. If I never get at least 70 most probably I will cry ba. haiz. :( never mind I shouldn't think about so much now.Have to prepare for physics tomorrow. I don't think I will be able to do well in the first place, I just want a B! Alright bye!

\huh/

Online quite long lo. downloaded a few(actually is many) apps for my itouch although haven reach yet la. But seriously, out of the many only one is game -.- so mummy I am using this as an organiser :) haha. im serious ok :) today wasn't quite a good day too had geography & amath p1. geography was crappy because both questions essay I didn't finish wrting -.- felt rather gg already la. but come on, i did my best without regret :) amath. I shouldn't say much cause I didn't really study I regretted it yesterday but it was too late. No choice. I shall face the result. I should tell myself not to expect too much from the paper if not when I get the bad result I am so going to cry again. Crying doesn't help ! Tomorrow emath. another goner paper. I came to realise this, I don't need luck anymore because it's not handy at all.

ps; " Friends will always be with you, you're not alone "

I want my itouch♥, when are you coming :( ? 

here i am back. bio & chinese are down. should i be happy? no 101% no. chinese was so-so. Biology paper is all out to kill me. I tried to understand yesterday & I thought I manage to get the concept already but still I don't know how do the question. I go like question 1 skip next question skip then I ended up skipping a lot questions. Whatever. I am failing ONCE AGAIN. cool yea. Quote from yushan "I am not fated with Biology" .true. i almost cried after the paper though but lixin was beside me so i didn't T.T Maths on monday both a & e but I no mood to study le. marshall said can ask mdm loh for math result. I want to ask but the fear in me is stopping me... I have lost my faith in myself. goodbye~ failure you're next to me.

omg too true. somehow i believe in this.

hello?

I am weird. Tomorrow is Biology paper 2. Why am I still blogging? I don't know. whatever. Today english paper 2, I am hoping for a pass. Serious. Followed by chemistry paper 2. Quite some questions I don't know how to do ba.  Shit 5 marks just fly away after I check my previous test paper. T.T my brain is blank today. All the questions on alkane, alkene alcohol I don't know but it was supposed to be giving away marks... what's wrong with me...I still get it wrong, it's just utter disappointment. I think I scored like 20 for L1R5 for all CA. & the whole level's result is placed on the noticeboard. I felt so ashamed of myself not getting a 20 in 4E1. it's crappy. but somehow, looking at it positively, it means that I can relax. I just have to maintain that 20. Whatever. I tired. I need a break but there is 17 chapters of biology note on my table looking at me...how? I need a break.

ps; i would like to say, the world does not evolve around you. don't take things for granted. you will regret one day. 

I have to believe.

I just have to freaking believe it's always easier to say then done. I said I will be positive but for the whole day I didn't. Every lessons just make me feel even worse of myself for not studying. I wanted to believe I can do it but the fact is I can't cause I am not putting in effort. But the worse thing now is that I can't concentrate cause I am looking forward to tomorrow which is my b'day but also a freaking hell day. I was so looking forward to it but in the end it's just another exam day followed by any exam the following day. I feel so hapless. although I have already celebrated my b'day but what I wanted was just a break on this very tired. I can't help but to bemoan because I am tired, really very very tired. I just need a break but it not coming...not for now. I will try my very best although I know I will most probably flunk it. People, just let me grumble for this exam period. i will regain but my happy energy and enthusiasm after the exam. 


ps; this is life & I know it. I just like to moan... 

exams are here in town.

Coooool. Exams are starting on Wednesday, Too cool already, cause i freaking haven't study.
i always believe: fail to prepare, prepare to fail. This "vicious" cycle & it will always repeats itself, without fail.
I was trying all my best to concentrate but it didn't work. So what can I do? I don't know.
Whatever, Anything. No matter how much I prepare/ didn't prepare I still have to face it.
I will face it positively. Yes I Can !

Look & these pictures and laugh !

Look at this & i realised i haven't study emath p2 yet ! :( 

Goodbye I to go & study already... :(

credits;google for those picture :)

Carnival day.

It's time to blog again if not this blog is so going to be dead once again. it's so true.

Paper 1 for both english and chinese is done & the results are fixed.
what I can do now is to buck up for my other papers which I dont believe I could, cause it's gruelling.

today is remedial cum carnival day. Come on, it's not at long like a carnival to me in the first place.slept late at night to try to finish biology last year MYE paper but I was too tired hence i slept at 1.The next morning(which is today morning) I wake up at 6.30 to finish up the rest of the questions.& i was lucky and proud of myself that i finishing doing it, although some questions i did not understand it >< but i tried my best lo. had physic clinic session which eventually let me felt worse of myself. whatever, i will give up on this subject soon. it was followed by dear ms koh lesson that she was late.lol. the purpose for this session is to take back and go through test paper so still ok ba. my result was somehow out of my expectation though, this made me cheer up a bit ba. this fly during chem. right after chem was bio so had to go to IT resource room 2. This session was really felt and regain my confidence and passion for bio by that little little bit. my phone kept on ringing during the session and I have to listen to it as it was important. haha.rushed to stall right after bio ended.

started decorating stall called iris to buy some more materials. the overall of the decoration wasn't too bad though :) the sales of the eggcurd can be counted not bad ba because not all people know what it is so not bad le la. we change our price after we have gained our cost price to earn more & most importantly is to clear all the stock away. we earned like $100.25. so proud of 4e1'10 :) Thank you for all the teachers and students that have patronised our stall ! :) Lastly, thank you all the 4e1'10♥ that have helped out in the stall :)

ps; sometimes, forcing does not help & I learnt not too. It is only good if what you're doing comes from the deep of your heart. thank you once again.

boo.

yeah.back for a short post. though i have been online like dunno how many hours liao.haha. today nth much. Paper 1 english is a killer & i seriously hope i wont fail. chinese so-so & btw anyone pls tell me wat is hazing & why is hazing call hazing? it has nth to do with haze.wth.

ps; just finish a super duper great achievement which i am damn proud of it:) yeah. since nobody knows nobodyt would care.wateva>.<

it's just 5moredays:)

forgive&forget.

yeah, i can seriously call for joy not JOY but happiness that joy.LOL. now with almost everyth cleared. i was almost late TODAY.omg i woke up @ 5am to study after thinking at i study finish almost everyth i decided to take a NAP & i seriously meant for it to be a nap but when i woke it was 7.30am OMG.shiti run into room & woke my mum up then she was like u take taxi to sch? at first i tot it was still ok but i seriously dun wana be late so took more money from mum to take taxi to sch. went down & wait for a taxi. lucky i wasnt late! heng ah.lol. when i reach sch & abt to sit down iris is just in front of my.lol. she say that i shouldnt have went to sch.agree but i serious need ss test HOPEFULLY to pull up some of my marks.haiz.so ya first period was SS surprising she gave us clue in the end unlike the normal her. lol. test was ok la not as hard as i tink it would be.hope to score at least a 8? hopehopehope. math was right after mdm loh scolded the class again i tink is becos of our own good MYE is coming we shouldnt be slacking so much already. haiz.&&& shina told me that i failed math test. sian de lo. then celine was like i also will fail one la if not i kill myself but i feel that she's lying to me(cos she always does tat to me) then i go ask mdm loh then then i tink she like knock her head a bit.huh, how can celine so zai one leh..haiz. done my eng speech nppa was ok la not as nervous as my chi nppa as sulaoshi say dun look at script ma but english mark agreed to look at script was nervous but i tink i didnt showed much? hoope so.lol & asked him abt mine score & it was 17/20YEAH!!! after that nth much assembly was boring & phy okok le feel that he seriously improve already so ya dude let's clap for him..lol. went straight home after sch while iris went kino with cindy but i wasnt sure if lixin went so ya.

sometime i feel that im silly. why do i forgive ppl sp easily like at that second im cursing & swearing abt that people but the next second i can like just forget or becos he/she did someth nice to me then i just forgiv & forget everyth.haiz. but isnt it someth good? lol.

time to buck up for MYE but i simply have to mood any1 tell me how? i dun wan a bad score!!!

13moredays;)

sorry.