I have to believe.

I just have to freaking believe it's always easier to say then done. I said I will be positive but for the whole day I didn't. Every lessons just make me feel even worse of myself for not studying. I wanted to believe I can do it but the fact is I can't cause I am not putting in effort. But the worse thing now is that I can't concentrate cause I am looking forward to tomorrow which is my b'day but also a freaking hell day. I was so looking forward to it but in the end it's just another exam day followed by any exam the following day. I feel so hapless. although I have already celebrated my b'day but what I wanted was just a break on this very tired. I can't help but to bemoan because I am tired, really very very tired. I just need a break but it not coming...not for now. I will try my very best although I know I will most probably flunk it. People, just let me grumble for this exam period. i will regain but my happy energy and enthusiasm after the exam. 


ps; this is life & I know it. I just like to moan...