Thinking hard.

Life is filled with so many uncertainties now, it wasn't like this in the past - never. Even without studying my my math when I was in secondary 3 & 4, I will still be able to do ok for my tests and exams. But things are aren't the same anymore, I try my best understand and study I couldn't even understand. More than half of the time I'll just seat there and stare at that math question. I feel so unless, why am I like that? Math used to be the subject I like the most, now that I can't do it freak me. I can't do my favourite subject, what more can I expect from my other subjects? Maybe nothing.

Mid-course (aka promos) are coming, in just 20 days time. I'm not even prepared. Not enough practice, mentally unstable. How how how? 6 subjects for A level I don't feel confident for any. Good job girl. I fear I will retain. I know I didn't enter a junior college to get retain, never was that in my thought ever. However, this few weeks I can't help to be thinking it I don't feel prepare at all, how to enter the hall? I, myself know pretty well how I'm going to screw it (upside down). Looking how people starts to mug, while I'm not just tells me how I'll do. Most probably pretty bad?

How? I know perfectly well I have to study hard but the time I had is killing me. Just gonna hang on there and finish and final lap then we'll start thinking about the rest.

Thinking hard.