London bridge is falling down.

Having dizziness for the past few days already. I really wonder if there something wrong with my body now, it's scary just by thinking about it. But the funny thing is nobody feels that I am serious about my dizziness, like I will always get well one. Having this dizziness with me for the past few days really freaks me out, trying my very very best to act normal. When I am feeling so horrible, eat feels like puking, sit feels the whole world is falling. I don't have to let anyone know, one thing I concluded on. Did you realized you are going through the process of dying every night when you fall asleep? When you decide to let go of your mind and you lose consciousness. 

Having to handle my family matters and telling myself I will be fine, I will be strong enough to go through all this shits. Maybe it's just a challenge I had to go through, just part and parcel of my life. 

Really tired of all these drama in life, I need a break. But nobody understands because they see that I am always smiling on the outside. "I need a break,I really really do. I don't know when I will snap."