Hey there, thanks for your concern but I'm not ok. I used to cry so easy and let off my emotions and I'll forget about it after crying, so what's with me now that I'm not able to cry. I feel that my emotions are all trapped in my heart. My heart will soon become a stone.
Do anyone feel that my laughter is sooooo fake? If you do, I agree with you. So what's up with me, can't cry but can only laugh so loud out, but laugh aren't too helping to me.
Sometimes I feel like a failure who can't do anything. I used to be a fighter who never gives up when met with obstacle, but now? I'm speechless.
I really want to talk to someone who can make me cry, make me feel guilty for not studying and not scoring to my expected grade but this will look so ugly :0. Not my mum nor my friends. My thinking is so extreme... My mum tells me she has a family history of depression and I think I have the genes. There are times when My happiness and sadness are getting a little too extreme and out-of-control. Well, I'm still controllable most of the time, don't worry.
Loneliness does kill sometimes when I face the four walls alone at home most of the time . I told my mum I wanted a sibling, didn't I ;( ? Then I talk can talk to him/her.
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