a little more.

Always too lazy to bring my lappy home and lucky I didn't since I forever bring so many things back to hall for I don't know what reason. Maybe cause I'm just too kiasu. Whenever I travel back to hall I will feel like I'm humpy dumpy, my bag so fat even my mum laughs at it. So my weekend is going to end in a few hours time, time really flies but this was a good weekend though. 

Attended my cousin's wedding yesterday. He was probably a cousin I know quite well since he used to work together with my mum for a while then I was helping out in my mum's office for a while plus my mum is close to his mum so yeah.. Seeing how busy he was seriously, the conclusion that i concluded is that getting married aren't easy. But seeing how touched he was as the bride sang the song 最重要的决定 with the music he practiced and recorded that he didn't let the bride know beforehand. It may seems like a very minor part of the whole wedding but sometimes we can't deny little things really matters a lot. All in all, I like this wedding especially I get to see my family gathered together as always~~, love the video they did to thank their parents and got really touched when my cousin wrote "下一世，我还会当你们的孩子" Maybe this is probably something we wouldn't tell our parents verbally as we get older and feel this is too mushy 肉麻, there are times when we can't help to find them really naggy and stuff but deep in our heart we are actually thankful to them. Because without them we wouldn't have been where we are right now :) 

So I've heard like nth people saying that I lost weight then what blahblahblah, it's time to find a boyfriend and get married stuff, 讲真的 I am only 19 yo peopleeeeee. Just because I have an over matured face I have to hear such stuff ALL THE TIME. arghhhhhhh.

So this is an edited post once again. I was rushing to finish my online assignment (as always) that's why I "book in" earlier if not I will feel very worried and anxious while I am on my train ride back to hall. Hmmm had a night run, 9km another achievement unlocked and I am feeling still ok, still not too tired shag and stuff, yeah it's still me here alive and kicking as usual.

“跌倒了站起来就好了”
this sentence was really thought provoking for me, i was always so afraid to fall since young because I came to realise whenever I fall there wasn't anyone out there who will lend me a helping hand and i will feel so helpless. In addition to all the helpless feeling, I will get scolding from my mum for hurting myself, people used to tell me that's probably my mum's way to show her care and concern but to me I always felt that the method is very sadistic, but well that's part of making me stronger? maybe. So that's probably my "falling" phobia. But maybe I can look at the matter at a different perspective now? I've grown up, it's time to look at the world, it doesn't hurt to get "hurt" but it does hurt experiencing less? Let's see how it goes. 其实痛也是一种成长，因为越痛的经历印象就会越深，记得的更清楚。
越多的伤口，阅历越丰富。

when can I see a rainbow? 
我期待看到彩虹。