alone/lonely

Recently I think I am quite addicted to blogging. Probably because I am always in my room, unlike when I am home I would just blahblahblah vomit everything to my mum. I need somewhere to contain my thought. In addition, my memory is kind of bad so blogging is a good thing to let me record my daily occurrence. In one way or another this would be a good thing I guess? 

So after I bathed my roomie just left the room after bathing. I thought why did she went missing scare me! I think I have a phobia of people leaving suddenly or come back late because I am quite a paranoid kid.

Thinking the part of being alone not lonely. I think my point is, most of the time I am lonely because I have been alone for too long. I really dread the feeling of being alone. You can't deny that being alone is actually a good thing but when you are alone for too long, probably since young it seems kind of sucky. I mean sometimes you wish you have a playing companion to play with you aren't it? OK FINE. I JUST RANT LA. I am probably fine, still alive and kicking. I just have to recognise the problem and face it! (that's the way to resolve stress) I just use this to kick the habit of thinking I am lonely. need to think of things to do to make myself busy, in a good way. 

Really thinking of the working in Taiwan for one month thingy after semester 2, shall give it a thought and convince my mum! Need to experience life before I really start working.

Stupidly standing outside my room looking at the sky. Look at how wide the sky is. I love to do this stupid action I don't know why, it's like so relaxing! When the wind blew toward me it felt even better, especially when I close my eyes and breathe in, it's just so relaxing, I felt all my troubles are gone! Then I saw this couple walking back to their hall holding their hands, gave them my blessings, I really like to do this. When I see good/bad things I want to give my blessing, I don't know whether it helps, but it makes me feel so good. 

Listening to the raindrop, glad I went for my run earlier. 

running makes me feel so much healthier if not I am going to be a fat pig already :( 

who want me like that? #justsaying #ishalllovemyself

read this article about 21 things you should do before you turn 21.

"Realize it’s okay to be sad."

It’s okay to be sad and it’s okay if other people know that you’re sad. Personally, I would rather be honest with myself in sadness than fake happiness.

http://thoughtcatalog.com/gage-mchaffie/2013/11/21-things-you-should-do-before-you-turn-21/#KoyCJgZFtbOMLpkq.01

can't agree more to it! That's the stand I always try to make and what I believe in. it's really tough to fake happiness, at least for myself I can't push myself to do it. I know there's pros and cons to it but I rather show it than hide it. 不伪装真实呈献最真实的自己。

SMILE