down.

I guess I'm going to be really truthful on my blog since it's my blog anyway. I guess there isn't much people or there's no one reading it anymore. But, I seriously need a place where I can be myself, living in my world.

I feel low whenever I'm celebrating some else birthday, not in the sense that I'm jealous or what. I actually happy for them but it's that way I see people responding to my birthday. Whenever I celebrates people's birthday I will try to think of the best way to surprise him or her, to make it really memorable. (this is excluding my usual clique) Life was never fair, no matter how hard I try to make a difference in someone else life, I get nothing in return or worst ignorance. It's so sad that when I say how I wanted to celebrate with my peers because I didn't had the chance to as my birthday always clashes with the school exams but no one cares. Am I that insignificant? No one gives me a surprise or present unless I asked for it, oh well. This is my life.

This is just some random ranting I had over the years, maybe I care of too many of things people wouldn't take note of or I'm being sensitive. But truthfully, I'm affected of being insignificant to others. So much for always being a lonely girl.

I'll try to be more positive in the next post.