Bye Granny.

I thought this was a good friday since it is going to be my maternal side cousin's wedding. Was really excited about it especially we were convincing my auntie to get herself prepared for my cousin's wedding and not be sloppy about it. Then I was so excited about the stayover. Since I am very close with my auntie where she's the one picking me up from school whenever I fall sick mum called me to come back earlier to help out. Yes I gladly agreed to it And hey i went home earlier on thursday night. 

Woke up at 9am for I don't know why, more amazing without my alarm. I thought this is a day I can just chillax at home and head out at night for the fun night. Went out to get my hotcakes from Mac to satisfy my own craving got home and realise I had a missed call from home. Seriously, if it's the normal me sometimes i don't even bother but I decided to make a call back today. Neighbour talked to me halfway while i was dialing my call, user picked up hence i ended the call. So the user made a call back, I realise it was mum then she say my paternal aunt called her and said Granny is diagnosed with cancer so we should pay her a visit later. The moment mum broke the news to me then tears started flowing; I couldn't handle it. Why so sudden!

I starting watching television show. Then while watching the show I laughed then when it hit me then my granny is unwell my tears started flowing. Supposed to meet mum at 2pm at Yishun MRT because we are supposed to go to Khoo Teck Puat Hospital. Around 1 I am at Tampines MRT station, I was waiting for the train at the platform, then I realised I have missed call from my paternal aunt. Pick up the call then she said " Faster come to the hospital, your granny can barely make it already." I was shocked, WHAT granny is not just diagnosed with cancer, she's leaving already?! Tears started flowing down, I really don't know what to do, i stood there panicked. I saw the taxi stand next to Tampines 1 so I decide to head down to take taxi instead. Called mum then I panic and cry, I was trembling. The office ladies next to me were quite shocked i guess. Got into the taxi and started texting Iris. I was literally praying the whole journey there to let my granny hang on till I get there. Alight from the taxi and saw my dad, after trying my best to calm myself down all my dad do is to cry in front of me then I broke down again. 

When to my granny's bedside and tell her I am there, all i see is her weak heartbeat and cousin told me her pulse already stopped. Mum rushed down too to bid goodbye. Look at granny's pale face, look at how much weight she had lost. All I could do is to cry and pray, such a weakling but I really don't know what to do in this situation.

It was sad but according to my family it is good for my granny since it ends her suffering in an easier way because she's diagnosed with intestine cancer. Looking at my cousin who always gives me the ah beng's vide trying to handle all the stuff, having to support the whole family I really want to applause him. I believe deep down he must be very sad since he has been the one taking care of granny giving her money, sending her to  hospital when she's sick. Plus he has this swollen wound on his arm and he is diagnosed with something like dengue, I really hope he manage to pull through this. 

Talked to dad about granny like what kind of impression he has about his mum then he said "actually nothing much". As I heard from my family, my granny may not be the awesome mother since she's always a gambler so she don't really take care of the family, but nothing much still shocked me(?) I was still expecting to listen to some stories about granny. Actually I can still recall her calling my name during Chinese New Year. Then I think again, not again. That wouldn't happen again. She's gone. She has gone to better place, without pain anymore. 

Head home from woodland alone back home. Nobody at home, me myself and I. I am pretty much amazed how I go through so much today by myself cause mum left and headed for work so I was there myself. 

The whole day feel so drama but what I know is that I will wake up tomorrow knowing, I've lost my Granny. 

阿嫲，我会难过但是我知道你去了天堂，一个更适合你的地方。

在那里你不会再有病痛，虽然我们都会很思念你，但是你一直都会在我们的心里。

Treasure people around you, you wouldn't know when you'll lose the chance to do so. 

活在当下，珍惜眼前人。