Bye 2013.

Oh man, in another blink of an eye it's the last day of 2013. Really amazed how fast this year has passed by. Started of working admin work after A level then applied for university. Didn't really hope much but I was really glad my life started to fall into place after admission into university. Hall life was...not bad, made friends during Hall Freshmen Orientation Camp. I told myself to enter university with an open heart to make new friends and expand my social circle, I guess I managed to achieve that little aim i set for myself. Semester one result wasn't that great, time to work hard next semester!

One thing I wouldn't expect this year is probably getting into relationship? I know I want to get into a relationship but to find the "right" person to get into a relationship I always felt it was mission impossible.. Then I told myself that it is better to be alone since I have always been alone for so long. But when you meet the right person in your life, the feeling is right, the timing is right, he meets the characteristic that you're looking for then you told yourself to give it a try. It doesn't hurt to fall out of love but it hurts giving up without trying to fall in love. I really thankful for  non-human meh meh to enter into a plain bun's life making this bun not plain anymore with "feeling" and filling. What I learn from this relationship is that loving someone and to be loved by someone is something that is very blissful. (爱人与被爱都是幸福的) 要学会怎么爱人先要学会怎么爱自己，学会怎么爱自己才能让自己爱的能量传递给对方还有身边的人。让馒头慢慢学习有更多爱的能量♥

There was this day I realised whenever someone is around I don't get to see the moon, like it gets covered by the cloud then I told roomie I guess cause when he is around I don't need the moon. >< Ok does this sounds diabetic...? #justsaying 

However, I feel the insecurity coming my mum and my bestie after I got into the relationship. Mum is afraid I will get hurt and felt a bit like she will lose me?  Just wanted to let her know, no matter what happens I will be there for her, the same way like she will always be there for me to fall back on when I fall. I mean no relationship is perfect,but I reassured her it's alright for me to get hurt because only when I get hurt, I learn. Like every time a baby falls you let the baby from it, it hurts but the lesson learnt is beyond just the pain. BUT THIS IS GETTING REALLY NEGATIVE HERE, can't helped it, every child remains as a child in your mum's heart :) While bestie felt a bit weird about me getting relationship, like just can't get used to my status. Sent her a message to tell her how I feel, I always felt that she's a "sister" sent from heaven for me, all those endless rantings and telepathy we have, we may change but the heart for one another remains the same! Hoping everything will start falling into place after some time, I think it's quite sudden for them to accept it. And i strongly believe time will tell everything. It's a complicated and mixed feeling here, I must take care of myself cause I know there are people who love me and are concern of me. Feel the love ♥

虽然今年阿嫲离开了，想起来心里还是酸酸的有无尽的遗憾，但是正因为这样我更学会了珍惜眼前人希望自己不要再有遗憾吧。但是总体来说我觉得今年的自己是幸福的，身边的人所给予我满满的爱我都感受到了，真的很感恩。

希望来年2014可以顺顺利利的过，身边的人健健康康的，天天过得开心不要有太多担心的事。

Thankful for everyone I've crossed path with and everything that took place in 2013, it had definitely made a better me. Happy New Year! :)