stubborn.

Just a night I feel hungry yet still don't feel like sleeping. Don't understand how can I  feel so hungry of the blue, must be the nice prata photo taken by my hallmate on Facebook. I underestimated my stomach, was still feeling full when I was asked to go out for supper. I was really that confident i wasn't hungry when i rejected them, I totally regret it now. 

I  just recall how I used to tear when my mum got home so late from work then I have to eat late dinner. What's even worst is when she forgot I haven't had my dinner and she comes back empty-handed. I will normally give a black face(annoyed), cause I really don't know what so said, like I get so speechless that I am neglected "WHERE IS MY FOOD". At times like this mum would probably be so tired she doesn't have spare energy to care about my emotion anyway. The most drama part will be me sleeping while tearing, ok the thought about it is really drama. Always hope that my mum will pacify me or something but as I have remember more than half the time I will be scolded or something if I tries to get more attention, it totally doesn't make me feel any better and make everything worst. #goodoldtimes #wheniwasyoung #alwaysthrowtantrum 

Oh well, the girl have grown up, a lot stronger but this moment I do really feel sad without food, please tell me why probably I was already annoyed before this so yeahhh, it an emotional thing. I know I am just trying to be a little stubborn, not giving in to my stomach. Unless someone convince me to eat, maybe I will reconsider if not, hell not. Stupid stomach D: 

Realised I have always been chasing people to sleep, all the goodnights then I will be the one staying awake. Too used to staying up, but come to think about it sometimes it gets a bit sad always saying goodnights to the people. I don't blame anyone since I'm becoming more and more like an owl at the state I am going.... 

sometimes it's really weird to say everything you want out, 

that's probably what I say as "romantic"? I don't really know.

just trying to type out what's in my mind but i'm not phrasing it well enough/

It's more like if you don't get it never mind. 

if you get it, it's a bonus. 

but always telling myself, don't expect too much, 

it makes everything easier.