what's not.

It's Wednesday todayyyy. Kind of the last day for the week for me since I'm not intending to go for my thursday lecture which contains mainly readings to be done. Was planning my schedule just now till the end of the semester with all my quizzes and exam dates while waiting to start my tutorial at 3.30, need to constantly remind myself of what have to be done and do my best out of it. Well, this semester is not going to be an easy one with lots of designing to be made and stuff but I guess hectic semester is a lot better than a non-hectic one, keep pushing myself to move forward. 

Supposed to go for Business Finance tutorial at S4 Seminar room 6 today, saw one of my hallmate and asked how to get there, actually he pointed out the right place but I don't know what got into my mind and decide to go to S3, thinking it's the same place. Went to S3 SR6 realising I was at the wrong place, the funny thing I wasn't the only person who went to the wrong venue, saw this girl that was equally blur like me that went to the wrong venue, explored our way to S4 SR6. What a day... 

I remember I had a strong urge to blog today but I forgot what the strong urge was now, a bit annoyed with myself. How bad can my memory get...  

Shall write down my random thoughts instead. 

Saw someone walking really slowly today and I started thinking of why we should walk slowly.. this was a recent topic i was talking with mummy on monday because she fell twice this month already. Mummy has always been walking so fast, always in a rush even when I am with her and I don't know where she's rushing to. I guess sometimes she forgets she's already 52, it's already time for her to walk at a slower pace o that her body can "cope" with her pace. In addition, look at the things happening around her. I think that happens to all of us too, we always walk to fast, rushing from places to places, rushing from home to school, we forget to slow down our pace to take a look of what's really happening around you. The random smiles on strangers face, that never fails to light up a smile on your face too. As crazy as it seems, this little things do matters and maybe this may even make your day (maybe that's me).  

"因为不能够给你一直牵着你的手的承诺，所以希望给你面对困难的勇气。"

I guess I have to admit there's this part of me still not that willing to show the really weak part of myself, I can say it out and stuff but I just feel I can't really rely on anyone fully, I have to walk the journey by myself eventually. Like you wouldn't know when the person you're relying is gone, so you can't rely, you've got to be strong by yourself. I just don't like to show the weak part, afraid that I will be a burden, get judged that I'm not that good and what's not, that's why I rather not ask and blah blah. that's being really truthful here, but yeah. 

but still thankful for you, 

your words, your nag, your presence.