Bad.

I ask why my day always end on a bad note each day the  I remind myself " I am the director of this 'show' in my life, it's me who let all these happen" feeling really really down, not even done with settling my relationship problems, mum just had to bring out my academic problems.

Just trying to make me like a problematic kid with one after another problems piling up. This moment I really feel very useless, sometimes I really tough when it comes to making friends. That's the whole problem why I am struggling with my academic result, I dont know and I don't know who to ask because I had like no friends in my school. Feels really like a pathom student. Ninja to school and back to hall. I remember how hard I tried to join my jc clique and make friends with them. Mum just had to pull me down asking how hard is it, doubting me, she just doesn't understand the barrier I have. I guess nobody do. They just say, since when they undergo what I go through? 

Things I am grateful for despite today being a very bad day:
1. Made it for work on time 
2. Ate the nice kway chap.
3. Ate ding tai fung with chans.
4. Get to celebrate yushan mini celebration. 

Time for bed.