Such a sleepy day.

I'm like falling a sleep any moment. I haven't been waking up so early after so long, not used to it. I think I look like a walking vampire. Lol.

Today had emath mock, it was paper 2. I tried to do like what Mdm Loh say, keep calm, but today I really can't do it. All was fine for question 1-7 until question 8. That's was when hell came. Because I still have graph not done yet, i went to do graph because I can't do question 8. My graph was another goner, I do until I don't know what I was doing and ended up calculating I don't know what equation. I still got one part not done and I didn't have enough time left. I went back to question 8. That's the best part of the exam, my mind blanked out. I stared at the question and couldn't carry on. My brain stopped functioning. At that point in time, I almost cried although I didn't. WHATS WRONG WITH ME?! Celine said I look ok cause I finish the paper quiet early but she didn't know I was just staring blankly at my question 8, my brain left my body there alone. Oh my god...

This is why I don't like this timetable, why is there math lesson after a math mock test? I don't even dare to face Mdm Loh. I can't imagine her marking my script... Took back the mock we had last week. Best man, looking at those stupid mistakes I made, I feel like slapping myself. Oh how can I, at this point in time still making all those careless mistakes that I shouldn't be making anymore. I went to the toilet during physics, tears just dropped. Im such a weakling. It's 20 days to Os do you know? Even if you do, you don't act like you do. My mind is all messed up now.

After I tried very hard to stand up, I bang myself onto the wall again. How great? Crappy feel. No future. I should think hard and plan for courses I can take when I go to a polytechnic not many choices though, with my extremely suckish Os result, I don't think I stand a chance for the JC anymore.

自我否顶。

I just thought of something so I decided to edit this post. Lol. Today Mr Shahril said another sentence that let me goes question mark question mark question mark??? He called me to go and eat ( it was lunch time ) so that I will have more energy. Then I was like: huh?! I look like I've no energy? Hmm, I'm so corpulent, I believe I've more than enough energy that my body need. I wonder what makes him said that or think that. But anyway, thanks for his concern but I still didn't eat cause I wasn't hungry. So yeah~ Random. Shall continue studying after I bathe. All the best people.